right or left, good or bad?

recently so moody.. heart jump so fas sumtime, jump so slow sumtime.. m i sick? my mind hide 2 devils.. 1 so positive, 1 so negative...both fight all the time.. Po= kep teling me 2 stay strong, noth is imposs..n muz stay hpy, no sadness Ne= kep sayin tht im so tire, ned 2 rest..n lonely, y no frens..no companion..dun pretend 2 b strong.. i hop 2 b positive, but im realy down wen thk negatively..is a very challenge job 2 change positive fr negative... i hate 2 pretend.. tht is nt me.. hide own feling is nt my style..but i hv 2 hide..at lis kep a better image 2 frens, 2 family.. m i realy on track? i fel farer with my close geng.. yamcha?movie?singing?eat? sem lik no mood at all 2 go out.. wen sit in room, i lik2 thk..thk n thk n thk... thk bc my past, my decison, is it on de rite track?? i hide mysf in room, away fr frens, facing computer n lebak~ i wan2 find bc mysf.. i duno hw 2 get bc mysf sum time.. tmr is my convo, early morning.. but din fel excited at all.. after 2 day training in HSBC cyber, i get 2 kwn alot of new frens.. but thy r diff branches wit me.. monday wen bc 2 my position, everythg is new 2 me agan.. 2 days training is abt indction oly.. damn bore sumtime.. graduate convo finally, definately hv2 say thx 2 my parent, n family.. im proud of mysf.. tmr wil b my gathering day agan , all my relatives n frens r coming.. wait 2 c u all tmr..cheer~